I wrote down every single name
Of all the people that I've hurt
And watched it burn
I laid my face against the pulpit
Confessed to myself all the lessons I had learned
I was fair and I was stern

They wrote me off
They wrote me a letter saying you're as good as gone
But I want it bad

To be loved and feel hated still
Don't give up, there's a void you fill
To be loved and feel hated
We've got it wrong
We want to feel safe but we'll never belong

I regret to tell myself
That it's not the person that I should become
So I'll drink wine and think it's fine
That I'm comfortable with my limbs going numb
I'm back where I started from

They wrote me off
They wrote me a letter saying you're as good as gone
But I want it bad

To be loved and feel hated still
Don't give up, there's a void you fill
To be loved and feel hated
We've got it wrong
We want to feel safe but we'll never belong

It was always the plan
Become a good Christian man
They can't learn to respect my happiness
It was always the plan

To be loved and feel hated still
Don't give up, there's a void you fill
To be loved and feel hated still
Don't give up, there's a void you fill
To be loved and feel hated
We've got it wrong
We want to feel safe but we'll never belong