Is it all that you want?

I wish I could do that again but I already know,
That the power of christ is inside her
Is too strong for me to overthrow.
And I wasn't talking about whoopi goldberg
When I said I would see your ghost.
And I will follow you now to your grave somehow,
But you've always been crap as a host,
And you'd push me from pillar to post.

These are the days when you will recognize
All the love and the loss in your eyes
And the memories of me at the vending machines.

Does god even know what it means
To be taken down in fits and starts
By village halls and vandal hearts?
And I wish I was your lone god for just one day
I would do the things I never do
None of which I'd owe to you
And no-one even listens to a word these people say.

And I wish I could try that again
But I already knew that persistence is never my strong point,
This desire is too long overdue.
And I wasn't thinking I was patrick swayze
When I went dirty dancing with you.
And I'd follow you now to your grave somehow
But I'm not sure what good it would do.
What does that even prove?

These are the days when you will recognize
All the love and the loss in your eyes
And the memories of me at the vending machines.

Does god even know what it means
To be taken down in fits and starts
By village halls and vandal hearts?
And I wish I was your lone god for just one day
I would do the things I'd never do
None of which I'd owe to you
And no-one even listens to a word these people say.

And now that you fear it the most,
I thought of you not as a ghost
Now I'm hiding confessions in prose
None of which you'll ever alter.

Is it all that you want,
Is it everything you've got?
My god.
To be taken down in fits and starts
By village halls and vandal hearts?
And I wish I was your lone god for just one day.
I would do the things I never do,
None of which I'd owe to you
And no-one even listens to a word these people say.

"Slow down, slow down!"
Calls the captain as his ship runs aground.
And I could swing this vessel to starboard
But there's really no point in that now.
And I admit that I counted my chickens
And since then I've been counting the cost.

And you hate all life's unanswered questions,
But you still hurry home to watch lost.